Ex is in the ICU. He’s had two heart attacks, is on a ventilator, is tachycardic, and running a fever amongst other things. They haven’t been able to lower his heart rate. So they can’t do anything more for him until they can get his heart rate down.
We grew up together. We wound up married due to circumstances, not because we were or ever would be friends. Maybe that happens to a lot of people.
I was told this morning that the doctors were surprised he was still holding on. I cried. I wasn’t expecting to have an emotional reaction. I never hated him. In fact, I wished him well. Still, I didn’t expect to feel this bad.
He hasn’t recognized anyone, so I expect he won’t know me. I’m going 3,000 to say goodbye to my first love.
I don’t think there’s anymore to say. The end.
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