Last night I made myself lie down and close my eyes.
These last few weeks I haven’t thought about sleep until the sun is coming up. I don’t want to stop to think, not even for sleep. Keep your mind busy.
Play another game.
Watch another show.
What’s on YouTube?
Read the news.
Who’s killing who?
Has Greece sunk beneath the sea of it’s debt yet.
Wait for exhaustion.
When the light starts to peek through the trees. I know I won’t have to think when I finally stop to sleep.
Instead, tonight I lay in the dark, my jaw stiff. Listening to my teeth grinding. I dreamed of a debate about an illness sweeping the world. We had the cure. It could be sprayed in the air and we would all be saved. But there was an insane deliberation about harming the environment. We could save everyone but did nothing instead.
I feel better today. I’ll exercise and shower. I’m going to get back to good someday soon. I hope I can find the right road.